(Cross Posted with My New Blog)
The DoubleThink (Coined by George Orwell in 1984) ability, mostly a curse, to think on both, or more, sides of an argument, and agree with both, within their context. I’m going to refer to it as just DoubleThink form here on out.
In example, someone with DoubleThink might think on Gay marriage in 2 ways;
One Side: Marriage is a religious construct, it should be kept the way it was, let those who made it control it, and its just plain wrong.
The Other Side: Marriage gave up its right to be religiously owned when it became recognized by the Federal Government. Everyone deserve equality in our culture, regardless of religious affiliation.
To them, both sides makes sense, and they would agree with both. It makes for a tough time falling on a side of the fence.
I have DoubleThink for just about everything, I see the validity behind both sides, and agree with both. It really sucks. A lot. I end up sounding, and by definition, being a hypocrite.
It also makes for a wonderful devils advocate, and an annoying urge to argue with everyone all the time, on everything.
I hate it. Hate it so much. I know where it comes from to, for some odd, completely unlucky reason, I either can’t remember, or cannot decide which side I took, or to take.
In another example where this becomes and issue, I cannot decide between 2 potentially equal choices, ever.
Do I want Waffles, or Pancakes?
Luckily, I do have preferences on some things, often though, its either physically chosen through my bodies reaction, like taste, touch, sight, or chosen arbitrarily because society demands a choice. Also, I can choose if the options are obviously tipped in one direction, like Lead or Gold, Creme or Sugar, $100,000 or a iPod Mini.
It’s hard to describe, and harder still to explain. I compensate, but I’m not very good at it. I end up looking, and feeling, like a young adult who has no idea what he’s talking about, or cannot correctly assess value in things.
But, I always keep positive, and remember, If you live in a First World country, and can read this, you have it better then roughly 70-odd percent of the world. I made that statistic up, its probably more, but it sounds right.
I have clean water, food, and a Roof that doesn’t leak. Anything more then that, I do not have the RIGHT to feel bad about my situation.